Life can change so Fast......
by Freddie Lynn
On August 17th 2012 my whole life changed. It changed in a way that I had tried to prepare for but now know just isn't possible. On that day at 11:13pm my sweet, sweet Mama Dixie Lou Spencer went home to be with her God that she loves so much.
That day I went to Mama's house earlier than I had planned because my own daughter had backed out of plans we had made. I had lost my very best friend of 35 years just 5 days before and really needed my Mama to help me handle that loss. But that day when I got to her house Mama said she just didn't feel right, something was wrong, she felt dizzy and so short of breath. Mama was had been getting hospice care since May of this year after having her 8th heart attack. But this day she did not want me to call the nurse, not yet she said, I'll just try and rest. For the next 4 hours it was up and down just trying to get comfortable until finally she said we had better call the nurse. At 10:30 the nurse decided that Mama needed a transfusion because she was probably anemic. We got to the hospital at 11, they checked the blood, said it was fine but Mamas heart was not pumping asking me what they should do since Mama was DNR.Give her what ever meds will work but nothing else I had to tell them. I remember the look in my Mamas eyes when she thought she was dying, she looked scared. That look haunts me to this day