💔 My Granny
Thursday 28th March 2013 the day my world crumbled, the day my life changed forever, it changed in a way I struggle to come to terms with my granny was the most special person in my life, she was the person I most feared of loosing someone I couldn't see life without and really struggle to get by without her, she was an actual angel she never judged me and was always there for me no matter what I did,
That Thursday I was so busy with my children taking them to their clubs I was at my daughters dancing when I had noticed a missed call on my phone from my dad he never calls me, I called him back that was the phonecall I always feared my dad told me that my amazing beautiful granny had passed away I felt so alone at that moment I just fell to the floor wanting the world to end how could I go on without her? I phoned my husband he couldn't take my call so I texted him and I just sat on the floor hiding behind a wall in the hall it didn't seam real almost a year on it still doesnt, my husband called me back saying he was on his way I went to the bathroom washed my face and went back to the hall to gether my daughters things a friend there gave me a lift home.
I called mum she was with my gran when she passed away she told what had happened my gran suffered from arthritis a few months earlier my gran has the noro virus and get very unwell with it but had started to pick up and was begining to be able to get up and walk about but she had got a chest infection and was feeling really ill with it the doctor had visited and suggested a hospital visit he was going to call her once he managed to get a bed for her but it was too little to late!
She was sitting in her armchair when she fell asleep my mother and my great auntie was with her they didn't think she looked so good so called the doc he said call and ambulance they came and tried to resuscitate her but were unable to my beautiful wee granny was gone this was one fight too many for her,
Her funeral was so hard watching her tiny wee coffin going behind the curtain at the crematorium I felt my legs buckle I was never going to see her again never going to be able to have our little chats again she wasn't going to see my children grow up she was never going to see me turn 30 see my sisters grow into young women.
It's coming up to a year since she left us and I still struggle to come to terms with things there is a massive hole in my life I miss her so much, I think about her all the time, I talk to her a lot and wonder what she thinks of my decisions in life I hope to make her proud.
R.I.P my wee granny