~ Valentine's Day ~ I saw the Calla Lily's
Happy Valentine's Billy
Valentine's Day has come and gone and I'm still here. I did find something to feel good for even though it's my first valentine's alone, or was I?
I was walking in the store Valentine's Day and low and behold mixed with the roses and tulips I saw White Calla Lily's. I have never seen them before so why now especially for Valentine's.
You see the spray of flowers on my Billy's casket were red and white calla lily's. So in the middle of my turmoil, missing him and heartbreak I got a sign. It's what I call a "GodWink". Billy's way of telling me he's here with me always. The day can be hard and bleak but if you really look and listen there walking next to us each day, each minute and watching us when we sleep. I bought those Calla Lily's and know that even though the connection is sad he's with me and his way of reminding me in small ways.
So at this moment in time I'm OK. Tomorrow maybe another story but our lives are chapters in a book telling the story's of our lives. I go back looking at past chapters, my memories but remind myself the book is not ended. The chapters have just changed. So I try to be continue because Billy always saw the best in me, so I tell myself ~
1 step, 1 breath at a time