11/06/10 Without My Love Paul Holt
by Hope
It will get down to 32 degrees tonight, The house will be warm enough but it is my heart that still feels as if an icy blanket has wrapped itself around what remains of my tattered and broken heart. Yes I am mending, doing better day by day as I was promised when this whole nightmare started 11 months ago. But the yearning for You, for Us will not leave me be. It haunts me and drags my happiness down trying to defeat my progress. When will the day come that I can greet the day with the permanent optimism that I once had. Able to ride the life ride without the anchor of grief weighing me down? There is strength within me I know, I have been through plenty of living before you died. But this is not just another battle to fight my way through. Not right or wrong to be conquered, someone in need to be helped... This is me, alone without you trying to continue with life and not waste it. I do not want to drown in my own sorrow but I do not see how to let you go. To keep you a warm memory as I travel the road to recovery. alone... HH
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