12/08/2012 A broken woman

by Carrie

Last Saturday my mom came home from visiting her Mother, who was just home from the hospital earlier that day, to find my dad's lifeless body in his favorite recliner. She called him at 4:50 pm and told him she was on her way home. At 4:59 she decided to call him and see if he needed anything from the store but he did not answer. That was only a 9 minute span between calls. My daddy was 63 and had a bad heart. He had an ICD implanted to keep his heart rate at the correct speed and to give him a shock if needed to get it back in rhythm back a few years ago. We really don't know what happened except the doctor said his heart stopped. I am his 45 year old daughter and he and my mom were married almost 45 years, or would have celebrated 45 years this month. I am broken, heartbroken and shook to my core. I am having a hard time every single day controlling my tears. I am on 2 antidepressants already because of my own health getting me down. I have narcolepsy, sleep apnea and several more things to deal with. I am terribly lost without my daddy, he was our rock and I love him so much. It just hurts.

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Dec 21, 2012
a loss of a good father n husband
by: Anonymous

hello just wanted to share my story with u because the moment i read it, i felt like i was reading my own story. My dad of only 53yo passed away 12/11/12. He was married to my mother for the last 32yrs. I am also very concerned for well being since she is the only i have left. Everything happened so fast in front of our eyes. Dad didn't showed any signs he wasn't okay. He was happy and had return back home after purchasing some work equipment when he became ill 12/08/12 n died in front of my mother. Paramedics came and resucitated him but he wasn't conscious and he had aweak pulse. Finally on 12/11/12 drs declared him brain dead and forced us to disconnect him from the breathing machine. My heart broke for my mother. Seeing her in the hospital next to him telling him love wake up. Today was the burial and i still can't believe he is gone. I cried a little but have not being able to cry and cant understand why. I see my mother pain in her eyes although she herself is trying to be strong. I will give anything for my mother to have my dad back but i know is not possible. He was a great father who worked hard for his us his children and wife. This Christmas will be really hard for us. We are even celebrating Christmas due to us being busy preparing all the funeral arrangements and not even realize it is going to be Christmas next week. So you are not alone with your pain. Lets remember our loved ones with happy memories. I am sorry for your loss.

Dec 16, 2012
12/08/12 A broken woman
by: Doreen U.K.

Carrie I am sorry for your loss of your Dad to a sudden death. I lost my husband of 44yrs. marriage to cancer 7 months ago. I know how you and your mom feel at such a loss. It is very hard to process the death of a loved one when a marriage has lasted so many years. A couple just grow so strong together, and when they die the pain and loss is so severe they wonder how they will recover from such a loss. Your mom will be in the same place as me losing a husband of 45yrs. This is not easy to be HEALED from. It will take a long long time. It takes a long time to get used to living alone and not interacting with that person each day. There is so many tears to shed before we can move on. Grief is so hard to go through at any time but when one has been married for so many years the loss is great. We go on each day and just exist. Not able to know when things will get better. We have to live in HOPE that we will be able to be sustained by God when we WAIT on Him for our Healing. We are all broken vessels and all we can do is to carry on and honour the one we have lost. Carrie I hope you will be Comforted in your pain, grief, and sorrow and that life will eventually get better for you in the days and weeks to come.

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