13 years of a jeckyll Hyde character who left me so cruelly...
at a tender age of 15 he was a 19 year old I got terribly besotted with and Dating him was exciting, I skipped my education to see him leaving me with lowgrades. I neglected my family to see hum, not returning home but going to his flat and spending An evening there and eventually moving in with him and abandoning my parents and brother Who I was so close to. Fell pregnant and then problems started when he came violent and even unruly and yet I stayed with him. I missed my uncles funeral, quit my job and deserted the love and support my mother had so given me. I began to hate them cis he did and moved away with him before having a second child and putting up with him and his selfish ways. I got hurt during this time as he was thinking of leaving me for his ex and beat me constantly. Later on I moved to he town and by this point encouraged him to regain contact with his own parents and before long they were a huge part of my life that I saw as my family. Yet he hit and cheated. And I took him back each time so much so I risked losing my children too. We moved again this tome so close to his family we were practically close to his patents and before long his family grew with him getting closer and closer to his relationships whilst still stripping away mine at one point I never saw my mother fir months and my auntie became a unfamiliar face. My brother didn't say hi and it felt like he continually reassured me that his family was mine now. I embraced it so much finally agreed to marry him and within months of arrangements he attacked me had another affair and then finally left me. Declaring no love for me and it all being a lie. He said I was no longer apart of his family and fir me to move out his home town as I was no longer welcome. I was stripped bare for what???? He started dating his first blood cousin shortly after and started to forget about the children he had with me. Only seeing them when he feel like it. The children are devastated like I am to see him play father to his cousins kids. Yet I still cry over a man that captured my heart that I was willing for him to hurt it and stamp on it. There are days I cry for hours over him. 13 years of a love hate love relationship confuses me even now. I think a lot about him and terribly miss him. Seeing him being lovely to his own cousin is deeply upsetting.