13 years of a jeckyll Hyde character who left me so cruelly...

by Rose
(Uk)

at a tender age of 15 he was a 19 year old I got terribly besotted with and Dating him was exciting, I skipped my education to see him leaving me with lowgrades. I neglected my family to see hum, not returning home but going to his flat and spending An evening there and eventually moving in with him and abandoning my parents and brother Who I was so close to. Fell pregnant and then problems started when he came violent and even unruly and yet I stayed with him. I missed my uncles funeral, quit my job and deserted the love and support my mother had so given me. I began to hate them cis he did and moved away with him before having a second child and putting up with him and his selfish ways. I got hurt during this time as he was thinking of leaving me for his ex and beat me constantly. Later on I moved to he town and by this point encouraged him to regain contact with his own parents and before long they were a huge part of my life that I saw as my family. Yet he hit and cheated. And I took him back each time so much so I risked losing my children too. We moved again this tome so close to his family we were practically close to his patents and before long his family grew with him getting closer and closer to his relationships whilst still stripping away mine at one point I never saw my mother fir months and my auntie became a unfamiliar face. My brother didn't say hi and it felt like he continually reassured me that his family was mine now. I embraced it so much finally agreed to marry him and within months of arrangements he attacked me had another affair and then finally left me. Declaring no love for me and it all being a lie. He said I was no longer apart of his family and fir me to move out his home town as I was no longer welcome. I was stripped bare for what???? He started dating his first blood cousin shortly after and started to forget about the children he had with me. Only seeing them when he feel like it. The children are devastated like I am to see him play father to his cousins kids. Yet I still cry over a man that captured my heart that I was willing for him to hurt it and stamp on it. There are days I cry for hours over him. 13 years of a love hate love relationship confuses me even now. I think a lot about him and terribly miss him. Seeing him being lovely to his own cousin is deeply upsetting.

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Nov 25, 2011
GOD BLESS YOU
by: Anonymous

HON,IM SORRY U HAD TO GO THRU THAT BUT THE STATEMENT ABOVE MINE HAS IT WRONG. YOU CANT SAVE YOURSELF ONLY GOD CAN THAT Y HE DIED FOR U AND I. YOU NEED TO CALL ON JESUS HES THE ONLY WAY! AS FAR AS THE GUY TREATING YOU BAD THAT WAS SOO WRONG OF HIM BUT DONT EVER PUSH REAL LOVE AWAY THERES A FEW DECENT MEN OUT THERE AND HARD TO FIND SOO PLEASE DONT BE AFRAID OF LOVEING THE RIGHT MAN LET HIM COME TO YOU BUT YOU DONT NEED A MAN TO BEAT YOU THATS NOT LOVE. LOVE IS RISKY YOUR FAMILY LOVES YOU AND SO DOES GOD! SO I JUST SAID A PRAYER FOR YOU!GOD BLESS YOU!AH

Nov 25, 2011
Youre a special Rose
by: Angels Laird

Rosa, love you, poor poor girl - I wish I could give you a big hug, so I'm sending one down the t'internet instead. I'm sure you feel, lost, bewildered, out of your depth and depressed at the moment. I hope I can help you to help yourself angel. He is a bully basically. He has only ever been capable of glimpses of love hasn't he? Always lefts you wanting? Its a basic human right to feel safe and loved. You are in the midst of a complete brainwash here chick. Your not broken, just brainwashed. No one is going to fix your heart and soul but you. Send this man to his own personal hell,like he has tried to do with you. He doesn't love you. He doesn't love you. Say it out loud now. Now say, I deserve more and my children deserve more. So I'm not gonna wait for someone to save me. I'm gonna save myself and turn myself into an angel. Today. My first step is to go to the doctors and tell her everything. Then I'm going to call my family. You are going to apologise to them for hurting them, but you weren't in your right mind. But you are now. Dont dance with death, dance in the kitchen to Katy Perrys firework with your children. You all could do with a laugh and that's therefore down to you to create.... don't go to sleep without telling those children that everything is going to be ok and you love them to infinity and beyond.LOVE started this, love will also save you. Angel wisdom says that you have to 'wing it until you can fly' it also says you have to gather all your angels around you for protection and unconditional love. Your mother is you first angel. She and your children are the only ones who will ever love you unconditionally. Ever. Get used to it and don't ever expect that from a man ever again. Call all your angels and say thanks every day that you saw the light, you're lucky enough to be given the opportunity to shine now. And shine you will. Even if in the short term your shine comes from your new highlighter and half a ton of serum. Celebrate your freedom with your children every day with a dance and a laugh you will soon start shining from within. And like the wicked witch in the wizard of oz, that light will sizzle that mans black soul into a million pieces. Shining will cripple him for an eternity - so do it. Choose to shine angelx Where do you think they come from? From the limits of human endurance, an angel is born x all my love chick xxx

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