14 years of pain
I am Sherry. My ex broke up with me after 14 years. The day before he told me he loved me, the next day he said he doesn't love me, and thinks we should break up. He said he met someone. I experienced terrible shock, and heartbreak. He started to text and talk to her on the phone, laughing and talking in front of me as if I wasn't there, as if I never existed. It's been 6 months since the breakup, he still calls me from time to time, asking if I need anything, I NEVER showed him any weakness, it was him to started initiating the calls. He does not speak of coming back, and it hurts everytime he calls. He was unemotionally unavailable from the time I met him. I don't know why I let myself stay with him as long as I did, but I fell in love, and you know what they say, love is blind? Maybe it's blind, when you are not receiving but just giving. I don't know why the pain is still with me, I lost my self esteem, nothing interests me, and I feel very much alone, and no one understands. I want to overcome this, but I don't know how. I want to stop yearning and hoping me will come back. I don't know who I am anymore more. I need to let him go, but I am still in love with me, why? Why, do I still have these feelings, when he doesn't want me? Why can't I get over him? HELP!!