175 Days Without You
It's been 175 days without you here with me. I am so lost without you. You were my everything. I've had to get on medication just to make it through the days at work to keep from going off on everyone and to try and stop the panic attacks. I am so angry at everyone & everything because you are not here with me. No one will ever be able to explain why you were taken at such an early age. It just isn't fair that someone who loved life so much should be taken at only 43 years old. Everything around the house seems to be falling apart & I hate feeling like the helpless woman that I am when it comes to certain things. You always took care of everything especially me. I miss your touch, the looks you would give me when you liked something I was wearing, the hugs, the kisses. Everything. Just talking with you at night or the many times during the day when we would call each other to just say hi & I love you. This month is going to be so hard. June 6 is our anniversary; we would have been married only 4 years. Still newlyweds. I miss you so much, Bobby. I love you forever & always.