2 months today! So sad all the time.
Today is 2 months since I lost my partner. The sadness is just so bad most of the time. I have gone back to work but I don't feel like being there anymore. I hate all of it.
He told me to go home after he died. I'm so scared and I don't know what to do next. I have been gone from home for 20 years. Home is not here in Sweden. I have got to leave this country. I was only here all these years for my partner. Everyone says no big changes for at least a year. I don't have a choice! I pray I make the right decision. I must move on now. I'm crying all the time and I feel like I talk to myself when i'm walking up the street. Everyone must think I'm nuts. Who cares what they think.
I just needed to write on this site again. thanks for letting me share my pain with you all. I know it will get better one day.