22 Year Marriage and Husband Made me leave:
(Athens, Ga USA)
I have been married to this man since I was 19yrs old, I am now 42. We have had a lot of trial and tribulations, and trying to hang on because we do love each other, and we have 2 beautiful daughters 17, and 20 who we both love very much. I have been a stay at home mom except for a couple of jobs here, and there just trying to please him, but my idea was to stay home, raise my girls, and be his wife. I never graduated from High School, and I have no degree t fall back on now. I have had to come and stay with my parents for now until I am emotionally stable to get a job, and try to stand on my on two feet. I am scared of the unknown, not knowing if I can make it out here on my own. I have been soley dependent on him for 22 years, and It frightens me to know end to look for a job, to try and stay stress free, to be able to pay my bills. I also have no car, and no way to get to a job or anywhere, and I feel so trapped, and have for 3 yrs now. I say I love him, and I feel I love him, and I miss him, and the somewhat security I had, but what I love about him I have no Idea. I feel as though I am going through a death, but he is still around, but not around me. I feel as though I have been alienated from my children, my husband, and my life that I had. My children are with him because they work so close to where we were living, and my parents home is 30 miles away from them. I miss my kids so much, and If we were all 3 together I know that It would be easier for me during this time. But they are older, and going to be moving out soon on there own. My husband has a good job with benefits, and is willing to leave me on the insurance, but he also has told me I would not be getting any alimony from him, or anything. I don't understand how he thinks I deserve nothing. If a husband files for divorce, and he has retirement but not much can I get half, and what can I get from him or this to help me survive until I get on my feet. What do women do when a husband files for divorce, and does not agree with the terms and the woman can not afford an attorney at all. Help I have no clue.