2nd Year in heaven

by Giana
(Wilbraham, Mass)

The first 18 years of my life were the best. Now being 20 years old Two years ago today, my worst nightmare became a reality. Oh how I wish it was just a nightmare. I sit here and think how this should have never happened. It is so unfair, and it makes me so angry. My mom died unexpectedly from a heart attack. Everything is just so hard. I don't know how I do it. That day just replays in my head all the time. I would do anything to go back in time. I miss her smile that would light up a room, how loving, caring, and supportive she always was. My mom was the type of person that would go out of her way for others. She was my biggest fan for everything I did whether it was getting an award at school or cheering me on at a dance competition whatever I was doing she was there in the front row with her camera. I just feel so lost and empty without her. My mom was honestly my best friend and I just wish I could tell her just one more time that I love her and thank you for everything she did for me.
Everyday is such a struggle without her and holidays are the worst. She always made everything so much more special and without her nothing is the same. I feel so empty inside. Somedays I honestly don't even know how I get through the day.

Always remember never take anyone for granted.

To my beloved Mommy:
On your 2nd year in heaven I only hope that you are safe, happy, and at peace.
I cannot believe it has been two years. My, time does fly. It still feels like yesterday. It still feels so fresh, and the sadness never goes away. The heavy heart I carry everyday longs to see you, longs to hear your laugh, and longs to have your near. All I am, I owe to you.

I Love you Mommy & I Miss You more and more each day. Please give me some strength because lately, I've just been so weak.

I know I will see you again one day. I have faith that this is true, but until then.... I am sending lots of Hugs & Kisses up to heaven for you. XOXO

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Mar 05, 2013
I understand your pain
by: Anonymous

I also lost my mom at age 18 to a sudden, unexpected heart attack. It's been a little over 9 months. I really understand your pain and it's nice to know I'm not alone. today I went through all of my emails from her for the first time. it was one of the hardest things I've done since she died. all we can do is stay optimistic and cherish the loved ones we stil have

Mar 04, 2013
2nd Year in heaven
by: Doreen U.K.

Giana I am sorry for your loss of your mom to a sudden death 2yrs. ago. It is a hard and painful battle for years after you lose your mom. I was not able to put my mom's picture up for 9yrs. It is now 10yrs. this months she died and I now mourn the loss of my beloved husband of 44yrs. 10 months ago to cancer. Today I got an email to say his Memorial gravestone has been installed and I hope I like it. This fills me with tears. How will I feel seeing his picture on his gravestone and the long verse of how brave He fought his cancer and because God couldn't heal him He took him home. This makes it all so final. If I have denial left in me it will have been smashed. He was the most sweetest man who walked the earth. This is what makes it so painful to bear this loss.
Giana I know how painful this journey is for you. Even 2yrs. is too soon for you to feel healed from your loss. In time you will be able to heal from your loss and be able to move forward. May you be blessed in life and be a blessing.

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