3 gone in six days how do we ever get over this?
This is my story. in november of 2009 my brother became ill the hospital said he had a blockage they would do surgery the next day. during surgery his blood pressure went to zero. the blockage had burst and his system was poisoned. we watched as they filled him full of so many diffrent meds. they pumped so many fluids into him that he became almost unrecognizable, fluids started leaking out of his nose, eyes,everywhere. There was nothing more to do but end the suffering. during my brothers days in the hospital my mother was not feeling well she had heart problems and was on oxygen. I called my cousin( my sisters best friend) to come sit with my sister at the hospital so I could take mom to her heart doctor. At The doctors she was told everything was pretty much the same adjusted some meds and sent her home. while I was at the doctors with mom my cousin started having pains in her chest, she was already at the hospital so they rushed her to the er where they decided she was having a panic attack and sent her home. When she got home she died. The next day we had to tell mom her niece was dead and her son was dying. I called her heart doctor to ask if she was strong enough to handle the news. The doctor told me I am looking at her charts, she just had an echo and I do not see any reason medically not to tell her. The machines were turned off and my brother passed. We came home told mom and a few hours later she had a seizure went into heart failure and passed away a few days later. Leaving us with a huge void and no way to deal with all this. I take antidepressants so I dont have to deal. I know I can not handle reality so I just live in denial. It is the only way I know how to cope. Oh and we already had lost my dad and brother in law six years earlier they died 5 months apart.Thanks for listening.