3 months.

by Stephanhie
(Toronto, ON, Canada)

After 2 years of suffering from T-cell lymphoma, my father passed away February 23, 2014. He was diagnosed on my 19th birthday and died shortly before my 21st. The loss of my father is almost crippling. He died 3 months ago and I still am in shock. Some days are better than others. Others, I sit and I cry. He was my stepfather, but he raised me since I was a toddler. He taught me how to ride a bike, helped me with my math homework, and took me to the amusement park every day in the summers even when he worked night shifts. My childhood was honestly perfect. My biological father never cared for me, while my stepfather (I never even called him that- he has been 'Dad' to me since I was a child) raised me like his own child, even though he was about 22 when he met my mom and started taking care of me. My dad was an angel on this earth - he was too good for us. He didn't want to leave us. It wasn't his time. He was only 40 when he was taken from this earth. It's unbelievably cruel that he did not get to finish his work here on earth, because I believe he wasn't done. I always considered myself an atheist,but now, after his death, I can't imagine a world where he did not get the rest and eternal life that religion promises him after death, since for the last 2 years in his life he found no rest or respite from the cancer and chemotherapy. I just miss him more than anything in the world. I hope one day, when my time has come, that I will see him again. I love you forever, daddy. Always.

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Jun 07, 2014
3 months
by: Doreen UK

Stephanie I am so sorry for your loss of your father to cancer. He was so young, and so are you to lose a father from your life.
My husband died 2yrs. ago of a deadly cancer through working with asbestos. His environment killed him. He died of an Industrial disease. Life is so sad without him in my world. But I couldn't bear to see him suffer the pain of cancer. He suffered greatly. His cancer journey was a hard one for over 3yrs. I could not function for the first 6 months and then life became more manageable. Best thing to do is to TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME. Honour the way you feel, and don't deny yourself those feelings on any given day. They won't last. They come and they go, otherwise our grief would kill us. We do get good breaks in between the bad times. Grief is on going for some time. But you will recover from grief. WE are all on this long journey.
You will see your father again. It sounds as if he did have a belief in God. He was your nurturer and I am happy that you got to have him in your life. Our lives are shaped by who nurtured us. You can continue to nurture yourself by doing good things for yourself each day this will build you up and help the healing process. Crying is good grief so don't be afraid to cry. Your tears will get less over time. May God comfort you and your family and give you His Peace.

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