46 years together now on my own---
46 years being married to just the best wife looking forward to a holiday and then out the blue I find I am alone. In the space of 3 weeks my wife has died of Pancreatic cancer, those 3 weeks spent going to hospital every day, managed to get her home for the last week so that she was able to die at home. I can't get my head around it, I know she has gone, she died on the 9th May 2013, but I feel completely and utterly lost at present. My wife and I have had a wonderful marriage, we both retired 3 years ago and moved into a Bungalow, spent most of last year getting it ready, this year was going to be a little less work and more feet up time, enjoy a few trips out, until that horrible cancer came along.
While she was in hospital and knowing what was to come she was going to help get me ready for life on my own, show me how to iron my shirts that sort of thing, before any of that could happen she was gone, and I find myself completely lost, I class myself as very lucky, I had some great years with a wonderful woman, but I would have liked just a little more time with her.
I have no idea how long I am to stay on this earth myself, or what the future holds for me, life without my wife seems like no life, I am not able to put into words how I feel, when I look around the Bungalow it looks like my wife has gone out the door and everything is waiting for her return, yet that won't happen.
She was just 68 years old, same as me, someone must have wanted her badly to take her so quickly, I hope to see her again one day, it's all I have left now.