5 and a 1/2 months - my first Xmas

by Nick
(United kingdom)

I wrote earlier this year about my wife debs dieing of necrotising fasciitus. Deb you were so so brave but it is true to say that I feel you around me every day. The pain hasn't gone away but I just feel sad most days, but on I go. Deb our 6 year old daughter Samantha talks so bravely about you, you would be so proud.

I cannot wait till our turn comes for our souls to be reunited but I will for the sake of our little girl, I will wait until the good lord calls me to you and our daughter is grown and well provided for. Deb I am proud to be your soulmate your best friend and you will always be my world. Let your soul wait for mine and we will find each other again. My heart is in two never to be repaired.

I love you Debra June levene and I always will, see you in paradise, but not yet.

Nick xxxx

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Dec 13, 2011
wishing u my best
by: Jenny Northern Ireland


What a truly lovely post.
U are very early on in this unwanted journey
but thro this site and the people here
u will find the journey that little
bit easier.Im 3 yrs come Tues 20th Dec
since i lost my 41 yr old husband.
Time does help and heal altho I would
never have believed that.
It has taken me 3 yrs to get to a place
of relative contentment with myself
and my kids now 15 and 17.
U will be ok Nick. Thanks goodness for
our children. They truely keep us going.

I send u my best from Northern Ireland.

Take care


Dec 10, 2011
1st Christmas
by: M Mack


You love her so much and your note to her is heartfelt. She is proud of you and as in life, you are making her happy in eternity. She sees everything you are doing and efforts to make a good life for you and your daughter. So put up a nice Christmas tree for Laura and pretend normal as I know how sad you are without Deb. We all fake happy at times and you are so new to this grief. Take your time, take care of you and your daughter who needs you to be well. One day you will be together but now you must stay strong. My best to you and have a blessed Christmas. You have so much to look forward too. Hugs and prayers coming your way.

Dec 09, 2011
Straight from your heart...
by: CH

Those are beautiful words which I can tell came right from your heart.
God Bless you and your daughter and find peace and hope in knowing that your Deb IS watching over you and waiting for you on the other side.
Hugs to you.

Dec 09, 2011
First Christmas
by: TrishJ

God bless you and your precious daughter. She is part of Deb. She is a constant reminder of how much you and your wife loved each other. Deb will always be with you. Always......
You are so brave. It's the most difficult thing I've ever done....losing my husband. I still struggle one year later. The holidays make it really hard. It's so hard to sit and think about the wonderful memories we had when our children were younger. It's more difficult to think about him not being here this Christmas.
We have to stay strong. Yes...the day will come when our souls are reunited. Until then we hold our heads up high and go on. Deb would want you to be happy.
Merry Christmas to you and your daughter.

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