5 Months of Grieving
Hi All, it's been 5 months ago TODAY since my husband has passed. I want to thank Hope, Eunice, Jules, Jen and the rest, of so many whose names fail me now, for all your replies to my post.
So much has happened in such a short time. Stuff began going wrong with the house that needed fixing. His oldest daughter started thinking he had money she was supposed to get and began a money search which made me have to get a lawyer. She called the Crematory and insisted she get his ashes and a death certificate. These she had to get my permission and, of course, I didn't give. She wanted copies of all end of life documents and a copy of our Trust. She was entitled to that.
Then my son decided to come for a visit to see how I was and over time had become verbally abusive because he didn't like how i responded to him. And i was paying him to fix things around the house. I told him he had to get out because i would in no way tolerate his abuse and disrespect.
All of their actions have robbed me of my time to grieve and get focused on my future and I resent them for it.
I found cards my husband had bought (two years worth) for me for Valentine's Day, our 35th anniversary in March, Christmas and my birthday in Dec. He already had , when he still could write, put my name on one of them. So what I did was sign them for him and put them out for me to read today. I also had a years worth to give him so I addressed those "To Chuck in Heaven" and put them out for him.
I awoke this morning and lit a candle and put his picture in front of me in memory of his passing on this day 5 months ago. I'm truly sad and hurting and wishing for my past life with him.
Again , Thank you all for your kind,understanding and supportive thoughts.