5 Months of Grieving
by Judith
So much has happened in such a short time. Stuff began going wrong with the house that needed fixing. His oldest daughter started thinking he had money she was supposed to get and began a money search which made me have to get a lawyer. She called the Crematory and insisted she get his ashes and a death certificate. These she had to get my permission and, of course, I didn't give. She wanted copies of all end of life documents and a copy of our Trust. She was entitled to that. Then my son decided to come for a visit to see how I was and over time had become verbally abusive because he didn't like how i responded to him. And i was paying him to fix things around the house. I told him he had to get out because i would in no way tolerate his abuse and disrespect. All of their actions have robbed me of my time to grieve and get focused on my future and I resent them for it. I found cards my husband had bought (two years worth) for me for Valentine's Day, our 35th anniversary in March, Christmas and my birthday in Dec. He already had , when he still could write, put my name on one of them. So what I did was sign them for him and put them out for me to read today. I also had a years worth to give him so I addressed those "To Chuck in Heaven" and put them out for him. I awoke this morning and lit a candle and put his picture in front of me in memory of his passing on this day 5 months ago. I'm truly sad and hurting and wishing for my past life with him. Again , Thank you all for your kind,understanding and supportive thoughts.
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