6 Day's = 1 year

by Patricia
(Las Vegas)

So ~ I'm doing OK at this very moment in time. The 21st is coming and I'm being visited by dear friends. 16th - 20th and then 24th-26th. I'm imaging someone up there is doing a lot of two stepping around to help me. Just a thought and feeling that I'm getting. The demons are at bay so the sorrow and tears are not as painful giving me the pain. I'm scared of the 21st. What will happen? who knows. Will I melt away and never be seen again? Not likely. Just another day in the world but to me, 1 year. I keep thinking of Billy, missing him so much. But I know he's in a better place. No more pain, built in a body that can walk the straight, I don't need to help him. The spirit remains strong and carries that love to me. Even on the day he left me. I will cry tears of longing and missing him. I will wish he was here with me. A heart wants what a heart wants....
My arms always reaching and aching to hold him. He holds my heart forever more.
So this day, the 15th I remember I have a friend from Arkansas coming tomorrow. It's Las Vegas and were doing the tourist thing and in the process helping to heal my broken soul. She comes when time permitted and somehow knowing to give me strength to pass through this difficult part of my journey. I still miss you Billy.
This journey I travel, like so many before me and those that follow will have to endure ~ love, soul mate, lost and finally strength to travel alone. You are with me in my heart and spirit, the comfort of my arms will never feel you again. Hearts no longer beat together as one must now beat alone. So it is, as it will be from now until we are together once more.
always me,
1 step, 1 breath at a time ~