6 months Later and Still No Better
First let me thank everyone who has been so supportive on this sight. I was hoping by now I would feel better, but I find that 6 months later I am feeling more lost and alone than in the beginning. I guess in the beginning you have all this support, family, friends, etc., then after awhile they just disappear. Do they really believe you are better and don't need them anymore? That's what it feels like. It seems like my continuing grief, sadness, and pure devastation makes them uncomfortable. So I guess maybe from this point forward I need to try to figure out a way to go it alone. I sometimes feel like there's something wrong with me because people expect me to be better....to be "over it". I've read all the books, been to support groups, I know in my mind that this is a long process especially due to the circumstances of the event, and the enormous love we had for each other. I also feel like maybe I am holding myself back because I truly can't fathom going on without Ronnie. I know I need to but I'm just not ready to.
Anyway, thanks for listening. It's comforting to know that at least strangers are out there being supportive.