6 months later
My Mom was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer at the age of 51, after suffering for many months with no diagnosis. Her Dr totally failed her and did not order a colonoscopy years ago based on her risk factors (stomach problems her whole life, anemia with no known cause starting years back). When she got very sick she was in and out of the hospital and no one believed her. We watched her suffer and knew something was terribly wrong. She died needlessly from a treatable disease and now my best friend is gone and the sun that held our whole family together is gone.
She lived for 17 more months past diagnosis, on chemo almost the whole time to extend life. When they could do no more for her she still did not give up. She kept fighting and would not admit it was near the end. I could see she was wasting away and was there for her every day but it never feels like enough. She was the strongest woman I have ever known and I am nothing compared to the amazing woman she was.
6 months later and I am still so brokenhearted facing my children's birthdays and mother's day and all of the events that she loved and cherished. I don't know how to pick myself up from this and feel so alone.