6 months today
It was 6 months this morning about 8:30-9:00 am. Why did this have to happen? Bryan was such a good man, everyone liked him. All of his co-workers wanted to work in the same dept. that he did, no matter what dept. that was. He made work fun, he made life fun. He made our life fun and very special. I was so blessed to have had him in my life for 26 years. But again I keep wondering why did God bring me my soulmate and then take him away from me. I know I shouldn't wonder this, I should be thankful, most people in this world never find their soulmate. I now understand how lonely those people are, as I am that lonely now.
I miss him so much. I often find myself asking the question with so many bad, ugly, down right mean people in this world why did God choose to take Bryan. Why do the bad people seem to live a really long life. He was one of the few genuinely good people that I knew. He always thought of other people first, if you ever needed help and he could help he was right there.
He told me a few days before God took him that he wasn't afraid to die, he was just afraid to leave me all by myself. Today was so hard, but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I went through the day mostly in a numb zombie state. But I somehow survived it. I went to visit him yesterday since the weather was good. I didn't want to risk not being able to go see him if the weather turned bad again, you never know, I live in Texas. Bryan used to say if you don't like the weather just wait five minutes. I miss him so much, this life is so hard without him. I go one step one breath