8 months later and I still miss you mom
My Mother 74 yrs old
I am the youngest of 8 there were 7 boys then me...I am 8yrs younger then my youngest brother. My mother had lived with me all my life and always helped babysit my children. I lost her September 13,2011.
It was like any other day..she was 74 and had not been to a doctor since I was born..she was 41 when she had me.
I was always trying to get her to go but she was hard headed..well that day she told me she wanted me to take her..so I tried but she was to weak for me to get her in my car by myself..so we set for a few minutes..her telling me it was getting hard for her to breathe....finally she said to call the ambulance so I did...she said I feel sick to my stomach and I can't breath good....those would be the last she spoke to me...as time went by I had to call the ambulance again...when I was on the phone the second time..I saw her head fall to the side along with her hand and I knew she was gone for good...I sat there crying saying please don't die on me....then the ambulance finally got there after about 30 min or so ...they tried to bring her back but my brother told them we knew she was gone and to stop before they broke her ribs or something because she was so fragile. My husband and I couldn't believe she was really gone...to make things worse the kids got off of the school but to all of this...it was so terrible..my two youngest girls took off running down the dirt road ..my husband had to catch them..my son just kept saying please don't tell me maw-maw is gone..my oldest daughter didnt find out until after her volleyball game a few hours later.
Everyday I live with the fact that she passed away in front of my eyes on my couch..and I couldn't do a thing I felt so helpless....there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her and break down and cry...it still hard on me 8 months later....