8/15/12 The Day My Life Changed
On August 14th 2012 I was sitting outside my place of work (Wal-Mart) on my break when my mom and step dad pulled up and parked next to me in the fire lane as a joke, I had just been telling my mom about making people move a few days before, after a few minutes of playfull joking I made them move and walked out to where they parked and sat with my mom while my step dad went inside until my break was over. As I left to go back inside she said "Good Night dear, I Love you" an I laughed and said something about it only being 3 in the afternoon and she laughed at herself and I laughed and said "Good Night mother, I love you to" and went back inside... This would be the last time I ever heard my mothers voice and the last time I got to tell her I loved her.
The next morning I woke up at about 9:30 AM and left for work around 10. It felt like just another day and all I was worried about was what tasks I had for that day and what time is get off work. I was less than a block away from work and my phone rang and it was my sister, she was hysterical and crying and I kept asking her what was wrong and she kept saying "Just come over!" but at this point I still was assuming it was something small. Had she got in an argument with somebody? Had she and her boyfriend broken up? Had she been fired? So I calmly kept asking whats wrong and finally the words slipped from her mouth in one hysterical cry "moms dead! She's dead!"... My heart immediately broke and in less than 10 seconds my world felt like it ha ended.. I just said hold on and hung up and turned around to go to my other sister house where she was... I convinced myself on the way that I had misheard her, that mom was okay and when I arrived I saw a cops car, my two sister, and my brother... I stepped out of my car and a man asked me "What do you know?" and I said "nothing" so he took me inside and me inside and I asked my oldest sister to just tell me what's going on and she said "Mom was in a car accident.. She didn't make it"... At that moment I lost everything...
That morning between 8-9 am my mother was on her way to the doctor. She was almost in town when a semi truck driver who wasn't paying attention tried to turn, hitting my mothers car and killing her instantly... She was only 46 years old, she had 4 kids (two sons, two daughters) and 2 grandsons and two more grandiose on the way from both daughters. She had just remarried in January and together they had bought a house only a few months before. She had so much more life to give and was so happy.
I was so lucky to have her in my life for 22 years and to be able to call her mom. She was beautiful inside and out and loved us, her kids, more than anything and made sure we knew that everyday. She was always there for us and she made sure to tell me every chance she got that she was proud of the man I had become. I miss my beautiful mother more than anything and I still can't envision a life without her. She was kind, she was loving, she was supportive, and she was the best mother I could have ever been blessed with... I love you Mom, I want so badly just to hear you tell me "it's gonna be okay baby, I love you" one last time,, and I can't wait to see your beautiful smile In heaven someday.