A beautiful mum Sadie, my best friend. Passed over 22nd May 2012.
I was your only daughter. You were there with me through terrible illness, divorce, childlessness. When I asked you why things were going wrong you always told me I was born for you. After three sons you prayed for me. That always made me feel so wanted. A gift you had to make everyone feel special.
Its been weeks since your death (May 22nd 2012) but the pain is getting worse. You fought so hard to come back home to me and you did. After twelve weeks in hospital and picking up two of their infections (you were only suppose to stay for four nights)
I feel I let you down mum. You never wanted to be catheterised or to go in hospital and yet at the end these decisions seemed to be taken out of my hands. The team who came in before you went to the hospice handling you when you were so ill.
I try and focus on the good times and there were many but your suffering the last few months overide the good memories.
If anyone can respond with any comfort I would be so appreciate it.