A Difficult Weekend
My loving husband, Gene passed away on Dec.8,2010 after being diagnosed with cancer on Oct.15,2010. Gene was a wonderful husband, father, and PopPop. He had a great sense of humor and was kind and generous to all. Our son and three grandchildren live in Virginia and always come to visit NJ (the Jersey Shore) over the 4th of July. We always go to the beach, town fair, and fireworks. My Gene would have a little ceremony in front of our house with the children and the American Flag. He would have the kids pledge allegiance and sing God Bless America. They would just love it! This weekend was just so different. Yes, we went to the beach, town fair, fireworks, but added a trip to the cemetery. It was so very emotional for all of us. Although my son had been to the cemetery several times since Gene's death, it was the first time the children went and the first time my son saw his dad's headstone. How could it be so different this year? To see the grandchildren, who are only 5 and 6 so sad, to see my son breakdown at the cemetery and to have this weekend without my husband was just so difficult. Everyone has now headed back to Virgina and I sit alone with my memories. I was truly blessed to have had a wonderful husband and marriage for 41 years. I have a wonderful family and great friends, but I feel so very much alone. It will be 7 months soon since Gene has been gone and each day is still so very difficult. I have a strong faith in God and know that Gene is at peace, but I just miss him so much. I try to take one day at a time, I know I have no other choice, but this journey is overwhelming. I pray each day for strength and peace of mind. May faith brings my comfort- Gene, I love you and I thank you for loving me and our family. You are always in my heart.