A Loss That Feels Greater Than Death
I feel I have been grieving for the past two years. First I lost my career. I worked hard for 10 years, passing up vacations and fun free time to get ahead and prove myself only to get the rug ripped out from under me when my contract was changed and I had to apply for my job. A less qualified younger student was hired to fill my position and I was asked to train her. I was 5 months pregnant at the time. Then, 3 weeks before my first son was born my house was destroyed in a flood. I was out if my home for the first 6 months of my baby's life and living in a hotel when he was born. My beloved dog and first Mother's Day gift died at the boarding facility during this time. My dear friend and office mate of nearly 9 years became suddenly ill with cancer and died during this time. I was rear ended in a 4 car collision where all four cars were totaled with my 7 month old baby in the car. I had several months of rehabilitation. Now, I've just found out as my second son turns ten months old that my husband has had 4 affairs over the last year, all starting before the birth of my second son when I was put on bed rest.