A Lost Soul

It all started when my parents died when I was 13 an my brother Dallas was 15. My mother died in a car accident and my father drank him self to death. My brother sent me to my grandparents to live while he went to New York to grieve. Three years later he called to tell me to come home. When i came back he was more crazy and reckless than ever before. He showed his grief through violence. About a year after i came home my friend and boyfriend got into some trouble. My boyfriend Johnny and friend P.b. got caught in a fire with my brother. johnny got killed, P.b. got very sick and Dallas lost control. He robbed a store with an unloaded gun and he pulled the same unloaded gun on the cops. We were all there, the five of us left in our little group when he was shot down like an animal and the cop that killed him still brags about taking the life of a confused kid that he called a juvenile delineate. I lost to of the closest people in my life because of this mean world, but it doesn't have to be. There is no hope for me but there still is for you.

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Oct 17, 2012
No Words
by: Anonymous

Nothing that anyone can say can help when everything you loved is gone. There are so few people in the world that can know your pain, so do exactly whatever it is every moment that will help you get to the next one. I find comfort reading things they wrote, doing things I know they liked or that we did together. Writing letters to them. Write down your memories, you never know how much longer you'll be in this world and it helps to be able to better remember the times with them later. Don't give up. Know that you have experienced some of the worst things that can happen to people in their entire lives, these are things that you don't have to fear anymore. I am so sorry. There are good people out there to help you get through this. Maybe you haven't found them yet but it does allow you to more quickly sift through the real and the "fair weather" friends.

Jun 05, 2012
lost soul
by: Anonymous

There is hope for you, just because all these bad things have happened doesn't mean you can not change your future. You are worth so much and can do anything you set your mind too. I'm speaking as a mom and if I was to die today I want my children to carry on and make me proud. I'm sure your parents would want that for you especially your mom, there is a special bond between mom and children. I think they are still around you in some sense, feel them and do good in their name, talk about them, talk to a counselor or church member. I wish you good luck, peace and much love, Ann

Jun 05, 2012
Live Life - Move on
by: Anonymous

I am very sorry for your loss. But remember you have to make the absence of your family as their presence . Just remember that they are always around you watching you. They could see you happy,dancing and crying . Just do everything you think which will make them happy. Also, we do have a possibility to make few of our own people. Find right friends and soon you will have a small little family.( I did the same )

Good Luck:) (They are watching )

Jun 04, 2012
To Lost Soul
by: Carmen

you are a very brave person, I am truly sorry for your losses. Life has handed you lemons I pray you make lemonade. get involved in a church group of your choice. there are people that could help you, dont try to go it alone, God bless you

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