A love thats never gonna be repeated
I lost my mom to heart attack suddenly on age of her 52 due to multiple sclerosis and very bad situation with inside home violence. Her heart couldnt stand to be in paralysis for so long (its been about 10 years) and a very bad attitude from dad couldnt move her forward but made her stuck. Its been exactly 1 year from the day i lost her. I couldnt say my goodbye as it happened in a glimpse of an eye and all i can think of is why all these happened to me and what if i could change it... there are nights i cry so much, i try not to let anyone know im in such situation and put a happy mask through the day. None can understand what such a loss mean inside the daily routine and our lives... i cant move forward, i still think i will listen to her voice waking me up to help her go to toilet, i still think i will listen to her voice to cook a meal properly, her way and more... oh god so many more... I think all these little things that used to **ss me off when she kept doing... I want them all back, now... if only i could change the past and help her. I wish no one should go through this decease and i hope if such thing happens, that family and friends will fully support you. I hope whoever reads this, hug his mother instantly and give her a BIG kiss from me, an unknown... that will make me happy.. i really dont know what more to say.. i just feel small..