A Mom who lost 2-sons and a grandson

by kittyangelo
(turlock ,california)

I am a Mom who has lost 2-adult sons. One my first born in a motor cycle accident. And my 2nd adult son to suicide. I also lost a grandchild who was in the wrong place at the wrong time.

A mother is not supposed to bury her children.

I have 4-wonderful daughters who I am trying to be strong. But it is not easy.

It is ONLY MY FAITH IN GOD THAT KEEPS ME GOING TODAY and my daughters. I hide my grief from my husband, their step-father. He would not understand. I can only truly share it with my daughter whose child was in "the wrong place at the wrong time" his life was taken at the age of 19.

She lost her 2-brothers, and a son. I lost 2-sons and a grand son.

3-young lives
THE PAIN that I feel..... suicide Why? the loss of my 1st born a motorcycle accident....why, The loss of my grandson being stabbed to death why?

In the real world the loss of my 2-sons and my grandchild there are no words to describe the pain. A part of me is missing......forever. There are no words to describe the pain.