A Poem About Loss of a Soul Mate

I.
Miss you so much
I cannot believe you are gone
My life doesn't feel the same
How am I to go on.

You claimed you'd always love me
And that you'd always be there
You wanted a Family with me
You'd build us our Lair.

II.
We watched shooting stars
Marveled the stormy lights
We rode along many highway
Traveled on warm Baja nights.

We talked about everything
for hundreds of hours
Your friends thought you quiet
But I knew you, your voice and your power.

I don't understand
Why God doled such strife
The Cancer took you
We never finished Our Life.

III.
You said you'd always loved me
the good and the bad
We never had one quarrel
Except for one...it was so sad.

You told me the reason
And that you loved me so much
You apologized to me, forsaken us
Because you weren't tough enough.

Ten years we loved each other
Yet it felt like forever
We knew everything to know
No talking required.

I tried to leave but
You told me I was your true Mate
You insisted no ocean could separate us
When we discussed our Fate.

IV.
M on Facebook she smiles
That big ugly grin
How can she look so happy
Despite all her sin.

You never loved her
But you adored Nick and Iz
You'd said you'd just suffer
To help watch over the kids.

We made a choice
To put Us aside
For the sake of the kids
And to preserve your Celebrity Pride (Ride) .

V.
I now mourn in Private
While the world sings your praise
They ALL admire you and your Talent
Yet they know nothing about your True ways.

The life we'd have together
The dreams, hopes and wishes
We talked of them quite often
During sweet, tender kisses.

You thanked me often
for giving you Happiness and Light
Before we discovered the Cancer
You thanked me for saving your Life.

VI
We were discussing marriage
Suddenly! Word of the illness
Separated Us physicially
So you could battle it fullest.

You needed to focus
To prolong your own life
And fighting the deadly illness,
O Fate!
To not be your Wife.

VII.
When we put the kids first
They were the gem
How they were feeling
And what was best for them.

And now heartbroken
I am crushed that you are gone
I regret I didn't stand up enough
For Us - To Those
Of that hot, sandy racing sun.

VIII.
All the prose and words in papers
and on the web claims her relation
Alas! You only wanted to be with me
And the kids,
But you were stuck under M's probation.

She put you through such misery
But for the sake of the kids
You accepted,
Claims her faux relationship to you -
Completely unchallenged.

A grotesque lie on paper
Creating such distress
For I... You told me were
Forever

Your Greatest Love
Your Wife
And your Best Friend.