A proud Mamma's boy
by Johnny K.
On Feb 17th 2011 My Mom was diagnosed with ALS...On Feb 17th 2012 she passed away...A year to the day and also it is my Grand Mom's birthday..My Moms Mom who passed 10 years ago....I am at a loss for words...I've been dreaming of my mom a lot and in the dreams she is sick and dieing...Anyway shes gone and i still cant believe it...I feel like no one was as close to there mom as i was...(but i know its not true)and no one loved there mom like i loved mine..(also aware its not true)...I just want to talk to her and ask if shes OK...I have 2 year old twin boys who lost there "Grammy" and boy did she love my baby's...I feel its not fair and that how did a little limp from a sprained foot, killed her in 1 year... Please forgive me for feeling angry...I know there is sooo much to be grateful for...Thank God she met my boys,held them and felt the love she had for them...I danced with my Mom at my wedding...She raised my sister and me by herself and she is my hero...I told her everything i wanted to and she knew how much we loved her...Today i just miss my Mom...But again, I'm sooo grateful for her...I'm the luckiest man that i know...i was taught that Pain is mandatory with this loss but suffering is optional...i need to live a clean healthy life and if my boys feel the way i feel about my Mom when its my time Well,what a great life i will have lived...
Thanks for listening...I feel better...lol