A sudden loss of my soulmate
I met this amazing man 8 years ago, and had 2 beautiful little girls with him. I had 2 other children from a previous relationship, and this man took them in to his home as his own. We spent every single day together, 24/7..he was my bestfriend! We shared everything together, he was my rock. I loved him with every ounce of my heart.
He had went to the hospital and was diagnosed with pnemonia and given antibiotics for 7 days. After the 7 days he wasn't any better if anything he was worse. He went back to the hospital and was given another antibiotic, but no tests were done or anything. After 9 days on the antibiotic, he was getting really bad..he couldn't breathe, he felt like he was suffocating. On Father's Day 2012, I took him to a different hospital where he was diagnosed with 2 large clots on his lungs and enlarged heart. The next day, I went and seen him in the ICU and the prognosis seemed really encouraging, I touched his foot, told him I loved him..see him tomorrow and left at 9:30pm. At 11:30pm the doctor called to tell me he had passed away. Even the doctor was shocked that this had happened.
I'm devasted, I feel like nothing will ever be ok. My heart yearns for him. I find that I am begging god to bring him home to me, even though I know that can't be done, I just want it so badly that I feel sick. I found out that I was not a very strong person and I don't know how to take care of my little girls. Im so badly in pain.