A YEAR AND 1/2 LATER
I am a year and a half into this "grieving process" and I miss him as much today as the day he died. I thought that as time passed it would get easier. I can't say that it is. It may be different than it was in the beginning but not easier. You would have never convienced me that I would miss my husband of 31 years this much, at times I considered divorce, at times I wanted to stangle him but now that he is gone I miss him more than words can explain. I don't write this to discourage others who may just be starting this process but it is the truth. Yes Grief Share helps. It allows you to talk about it when you know everybody else is sick to death of hearing about it. At this point I think that this is just the way my life is going to be and I now have to learn to accept it and move on. I pray each and every day that God will send someone into my life that will help me move on but I just don't forsee that ever happening. I cant stand myself how would I expect someone to love me. Despite all of his many faults I know for sure that he loved me and was there for me when I needed him to be. I don't have that anymore and I miss it dearly.