Abandoned and grieving
My grief is deep and painful. There will be no closure for me...ever. I don't know why what happened to me happened. It just did and now I am left to pick up the pieces of my life, accept what has transpired, and trust that brighter days are yet to come.
My significant other packed his things and left me while I was at work one day. I have not seen him, spoken to him, or had any correspondence with him since. There were no warning signs, no fights, no nothing...just gone. In the instant that I came home and realized what had happened, my life as I knew it came tumbling down around me. Depression and anxiety took over where once there was hope and peace. Innocence was replaced with corruption.
I find myself yearning to get back to normal and the person I was, but I've realized I'll never be that person again. She's gone and the person I am now is broken and saddened beyond belief. BUT, I believe that while God has allowed me to go thru this, He did not DO THIS TO ME. He would never wish this world of hurt on me. I am choosing to believe that He will see me thru this and somehow, some way make something good come out of this for me.
Already, I am more compassionate for others that are grieving and/or suffering from depression (two different things, but closely related). I also believe that I will one day be able to help someone else get thru a similar situation as this. I will be able to show them that they are not alone thru their darkest hours.
Guys and girls, if you are reading these words, know this...you are a SURVIVOR!! You are getting thru something devastating and you are still here! It has not defeated you, it has not destroyed you despite how low you may feel right now. You are here and you are going to make it. Keep telling yourself that and if you have to survive one day, or one minute at a time, so be it! That minute will turn into hours. That day will turn into weeks and before you (I) know it, there will be precious amounts of time between you and what has happened to you (me).
Time will heal. It won't erase, but it will heal the wounds and dull the sharpness of the pain you are in right now. I pray for all of us that are grieving (for whatever reason) that God will grant us tender mercies and peace tonight.
ED.--Jay, you might want to read another thread on this page called "Grief isn't just about death".