by Orla Cahill
I broke up with my boyfriend about 3 year ago !
We lived together for 2 & dated each other for 6 years in total it was a hard period but I got over it !
He cheated on me so that may it easy , I will say I take my blame as I am not perfect & had faults too
I did however lean on a male friend at the time probably depended on him to much ! I eventually told him I like him as he was giving me signals he like me for a long time !
So we both liked each other that was out in open I was relieved as I think I liked him since we met 10 years ago ! We were friends so long !
But it then came out he had been seeing another girl & it was serious I was crushed !
He never gave me a chance so we have not spoken since ! I just found out he is getting married & I am devastated !
I do wish him well & hope he is happy but the pain I feel awful I just can't move on with my life as I have lost the ability to trust men or care for someone I prefer to be on my own as I wouldn't get hurt that way again !
I don't want self pity I just need some advice that can help me to see something in someone again I feel everyone deserves happiness !
I feel I am pretty levelled head & I have made mistakes but I am been punished a little !
Would love to hear comments !!