Addictions, Cancer or Suicide
My brother has stage 4 brain cancer that is terminal. He wants to commit suicide and has pushed me out of his life so I now have to grieve. He is dead. We talked about the way he wants to die and that is by a gun and wanted me to get him one. I said no, I also discussed with him why he wanted to die so violently. He said he wants to die near the end when he gets really bad and cannot function, but I do not believe him. I said if it gets closer there are other ways that you could die other than by gun. Those words will haunt me, as he cling ed to that with me and wanted me to tell him a softer way. He then disowned me for not telling him the ways he said I was selfish. The death of my brother happened for me years ago, he was taken from me with his addictions and now the disease is going to kill him. This is about the lose of my big brother, I lost him years ago, got him back for a moment and let had to let him go again. His wishes. I love him and always will.