After the First Year

by Rose L.
(St. Louis, MO)

My Angel #1 has been in Heaven a year now. She joined God on Feb. 10, 2011. It still feels like yesterday, in terms of grief time and missing her. But as I watch her children and see how they have grown and changed from carefree little grand-angels to struggling children and then to semi-adjusting kids, I have to thank God that He has it under control. Somehow, He allows kids resilience. Although, I feel much of their pain is silent. I believe they hold a lot inside, where we grown-ups can't see it. That bothers me because I can't fix it.

I am not God-I can only do what Grandma's do..My son-in-law is amazing. He is a son I am so proud of, always was, but now he has blossomed and grown into this man of faith and love and beauty. I am grateful he includes me in the kids' lives so much, it is part of my journey. Bless him.

For me, this has been a year! I will say this in all honesty. I am doing more real grieving this year. I think I am feeling more of the loss of my Shanny. Her smile, her sweetness, her God-given gifts of humor and I miss that silliness!

But in her honor, I continue to grow, to learn to share and always-to pray!

Rose L.

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May 16, 2012
My First Visit
by: Rose L

I wish you could read my firt visit to this page- I do not know if that is possible. It is a beautiful testament as to how God works in our lives if we ask Him in..He holds us up and wipes our tears, He is not only Creator but Gentle loving Father..this site will keep you grounded, share it, and visit it often!

May 16, 2012
by: Anonymous

hi, i like your personality, you continue to grow, to learn and to pray....

May 16, 2012
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by: Anonymous

May God continue to give you strength and comfort. Your a beautiful mother and grandmother and your Angel is with you all in spirit! Many blessings to you all!

May 15, 2012
by: dede

I just read your message...and want to thank you for your honesty and most of all your sense of hope. Hope for the kids..your son in law and yourself. I needed to read something like that. Thank you and sending love your way.

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