Age 30 will be the worst year of my life
Weeks before my 30th birthday in April, my girlfriend of 5 years (living together for more than 3) decided to leave me very abruptly. She moved out under the pretense that we would continue to work on things, but it's fairly clear that there was never any intention of doing so. I was blindsided by this and since that time I've seen depths of depression and anxiety that have made me feel worse than I ever thought I would or could. I had caught her planning to meet with another man the night she left; When I confronted her she refused to talk about it but still left and still met up with this other man. She's no longer talking to this man but she then hooked up with another... Then another, who I believe she's still seeing, and know she was seeing as of May 5. After 5 years, she left me out of the blue and has been with 3 guys that I know of in under a month following, and I think is still with the 3rd.
I've never felt such despair and disbelief. She'd been the only constant in my life all this time and I can't believe she cast me aside so quickly, and at least for now my capacity for trust is shot. I am so heartbroken and at times concerned for my ability to function. I try to remember that life goes on but right now I'm so lonely that it's hard to even put into words.
I am thankful for the opportunity to unload here and see that I'm not alone. Trying to keep my chin up and keep going but right now is a very difficult time in my life and it's extremely hard to envision feeling 'Normal' again. :(
Best of luck to all of you.