by Kathie
(Poplar Bluff, Missouri )

My sweet Alfie, we have only had him a year. A friend lost his wife suddenly and asked us to watch his 6 month old Chihuahua for a couple of weeks. I wasn't too happy about it but agreeded, how could I say no. We already had one Chihuahua and didn't want another. The two weeks turned into a month and his owner didn't want him back,Alfie had been his wifes dog and everytime he saw Alfie it just reminded him of all he lost. This little ball of fire ate the edges of several pieces of furniture, couldn't leave a book lying around, he always ate the endings. Two pair of my daugters shoes were an afternoon treat for him. This dog had to go. We tried to find him a new home, but nothing was good enough, that is when I knew. Alfie was mine!

After a few months we worked through his chewing issues and we all fell in love with him, even our older Chihuahua Jr. Alfie was a joy, playful and loving. When we would get home from work they would meet us at the door doing their happy dance. He loved to play, he would bring a toy to me, and if I was busy and didn't happen to notice he would bring another and another until I would notice a circle of toys at my feet. We would play a game I called soccer. I would kick a ball, he would chase it down and some how he would bat it back to me, we played this every evening before we went to bed and every morning before I left for work. Some morning when I would wake up all his toys would be in bed with us. He was a joy. My youngest daughter left home for college about a month after he came into our lives. I know he helped me through those first lonely months of the empty nest period.

You couldn't be sad or lonely when Alfie was around because he was so joyous and happy with life you had to be also. Last Sunday I put the dogs out to potty, they were out just a few minutes when I heard Jr. barking, not his usual bark. I opened the door and he ran in but no Alfie. We started looking then, and have every day snce. We live in the country and fear an animal such as a coyote or a hawk might have gotten him. He was so small. I have problems sleeping, the images when I close my eyes are unbearable. I can't stop crying. He wasn't just a dog. He was my Sweet Alfie, my baby!! It's the not knowing, the fear he is hurt and we just are not looking in the right place. I pray that if he is alive that someone good and gentle has him, and that if an animal did get him if was fast and painless.

I love you Alfie, you will be in my heart forever!!!

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Aug 16, 2013
Beautiful Alfie
by: Diane

I'm so very sorry about what happened, the not knowing can be the worst.Remember, it was a horrible accident, there was nothing that you did wrong. I'm sure you let them out countless times before this, there was no way for you to know that time would be different. Little Alfie will live on in your heart, he knew he was loved and cherished so his life was a happy one. It's so hard to not have them around anymore, everything is a reminder. Please kiss your other baby for me,God bless you for caring enough to hurt so bad.

Aug 12, 2013
by: Nadine

I know what you are going through. I lost my beloved cat, Ashley, about 2-1/2 months ago. She would never be gone more than a day or two. The last time we saw her was May 25, 2013. We also live in a rural area and have been told there are coyotes in the fields nearby. That is what my husband and i believe happened to her. I also can't help wondering what she might have gone through and think if only i had been there to help her or at least comfort her. I always imagined i would be with her when she died. I used to call her my baby girl. She was the first of several cats and will always hold a special place in my heart. I now have a memorial plaque in the back yard and a picture of her in a Rainbow Bridge frame. They are of some comfort to me. I hope you can find some peace in the loss of your Alfie after you have grieved. It will take some time though. Best wishes. Nadine

Aug 12, 2013
by: Doreen U.K.

Kathie I am sorry for your loss of Alfie. What you thought was a problem having another dog turned into a Blessing. Alfie came into your life at a very pertinent time for you having the empty nest. It is so sad that Alfie has been lost and as you say the worst fear is "The not knowing" where he is? or is he safe?
I felt this pain every time a bird flew out of the cage when I went to put their food into the cage. My heart broke so much for my loss of wondering if they were safe and no other predator had killed them. I hate to see animals suffer and find it painful watching animal documentaries on TV. I know that animals by nature are hunters and this is how they get their food, but I will always feel the pain of seeing another animal be killed even for food. It is in our nature to cry out with hurt and pain over this.
I can understand how you feel. God Bless you for giving Alfie a home and for the joy you both gave each other.

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