All alone

by Mona

My husband of 22 and a half years was shot and killed on January 8, 2014. It would have been 23 years come May. We have two kids together and lets just say I personally don't think that I can ever love again, at least never like that. I was 18years old when I met him and he was 19 years old. We are two years apart but his birthday comes in December. Yep, he had just turned 42 December 2013. This is the worst feeling in the world. I not only hurt for myself but a lot of my hurt is for our kids. I just don't know. I can't comprehend this at all. I understand death and have no problems what so ever with it. Its just how it happened for him. SHOT, in cold blood left to die on a cold sidewalk, all alone.Life really *ucks sometimes. Im done.

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Mar 06, 2014
by: Lawrence

I can feel your headache although I am 5000 miles away.
You say you don’t know how it happened.
I have just been reading a book by a learned Rabbi called “WHY DO BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE”
He gave no explanation, it’s just life and it happens to us all sooner or later.
You have lost a beloved husband and the pain and agony for you must be overwhelming, there are no words I can write to make this terrible loss acceptable except to tell you to CRY, CRY and CRY until you feel drained of tears but more will come, its nature’s way helping your body to cope with this nightmare that has happened.
I lost a deeply cherish wife just over a year ago after spending a lifetime together, from young teenagers to elderly pensioners and I am still in torment at her dying, anything can trigger off the tears just seeing a couple kiss will start me sobbing, and the loneliness is still very hard to endure, but I do because there is no alternative.
You are still young with all your life ahead of you but don’t make any hasty decisions, wait until your grief is easing, as it will believe it or not.
I couldn’t have imagined I would have been able to write this comment after my beautiful wife died, I just wanted to join her, but yet here I am offering you comfort and succor, so I repeat the pain will ease as the weeks and months pass.
You have joined a web site where we are all suffering the loss of a loved one, so read all our stories and know you are not alone.
With deepest sympathy.

Mar 05, 2014
All alone
by: Doreen UK

Mona I am so sorry for your loss of your husband to a sudden death. He was so young. This was a senseless, untimely death. My heart goes out to you and your two children now having to go on without a dad, and you without your husband. I was married 44yrs. and lost my husband to a slow deadly cancer 22 months ago. Life will never be the same again. I still hurt from the loss of him. My 3 children are all adults. Eldest 45yrs. 42yrs.33yrs. thank God I did not lose my husband when the children were young. I wouldn't have known how to cope with this. My heart breaks for all those going through what you are facing now in life. I hope you have a good support network of people to help you through this grief. If you find yourself struggling you could try grief counselling for a few sessions since you suffered a sudden cruel loss which will be harder to go through. My husband was my first love and my last. I could never love another man like I loved him. I now wait on God and I know I will see him again. This keeps me going. You are young. You can't process your future now it is too soon, but don't put your life on hold. Let life unfold as it does. I would like to meet someone for companionship. I hate the loneliness now despite keeping busy. I do understand how you feel. We all do on this site know what you are going through and yet we are limited in how we can support each other because there are no magic solutions but to keep talking and keep supporting each other even from a distance. We know the language of loss and each of us express ourselves in our own way which often is healing to others. May God come close to you and lift you out of your pit of loneliness and sorrow and give you His Peace.

Mar 05, 2014
Your loss
by: Anonymous

So young. I'm so sorry, your right life is so very hard sometimes. I lost an adult son, and I know. But you will have to go on, and be there for your children. They need you more than ever. I feel for everyone involved. No one deserves that.

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