almost 10 years and still cant move on
My name is jennifer and I am 27. I met a guy named joseph december 15 2003 after talking many months prior we instantl y bonded. We shared so much in common from family life to hobbies and never spent a day apart it never got old and we never got tired of one another. He was killed in a car accident and it happened 4 miles from my house. I even heard the sirens and police cars. This is a day ill never forget because I had that gut wrenching feeling that something terrible happened. It wasn't until 8 am his mom called me to tell me he wasn't going to come home because he had been killed in a car wreck. I was calm and got off the phone with her and then ran down the hallway and collapsed at my parents door. I went into shock and had to be sedated and kept that way for weeks. I cannot get past this. The topic makes me cry and its even been almost 10 years. I cannot commit in any relationship and always push people away that try and get close. This man was my everything I loved him whole heartedly. Does anyone else go through this too???