Almost 30 years.
My loss is my husbands and my divorce after almost 30 years. He went into a midlife crisis and decided that all of our dreams of being grandparents, (which we just this year had our first 2) is out the window. He is now out chasing what he can and doesn't want me or the family anymore.
I am truly mourning the loss. I have had people tell me over and over. Not you and Billy. NEVER would I have thought you two. But he began drinking and partying like he was 15 and never looked back.
I am on my own and our kids have their own lives. I am going to Alanon meetings and joining the local theatre group.
I am making decisions that are good for me.
I am lonely but that is part of the grief.
I am angry and hurt. I am tired of the overwhelming roller coaster of emotions but I'm getting help.
I am looking to God more than I ever have before.
I am learning to love life some days.
I'm finding out who my true friends are.