Alone in grief
by alone in grief
(United Arab Emirates)
I lost my mum 2 months ago. She had been ill the begining of 2011 and my only consolation was that my dad was with her. He stood by her like a rock and did everything he could to make her better. So earnest was his efforts that I was sure she would come out of it. I live in another country and though I spent the last month with her caring for her I somehow am not able to get over her death. Post her death I got busy helping my dad recuperate and relocate.I am now back to the country where I reside and though I have a son (6 1/2 yrs ) who is a handfull I still feel so down. My husband though with me physically somehow has never been of any support in all this. He chose to stay away from all this. My friends are busy with their own life. Don't know if my expectations from a spouse and friends are too high.
For the last 13 years everyday on this day of the week I have spoken to my mom over the phone (when I am not with her). Today is one of those days and I just cannot stop crying. Suddenly I have no one to speak to.
I miss my mum so much! She is the only person in this world who understood me.