I lost my mother one year ago on 1st of July 2009. She went to the hospital for some usual analysis and made a heart attack. With her, part of my heart my soul have gone. She was my best friend, my dearest mother, the most beautiful and sweet mother in the world. I feel so alone, I have no brother or sisters and I lost my father also 4 years ago. I should want to be with her. We lived together and it's so difficult to come back in an empty house. She loved flowers, especially roses, and made the best cookies. Even one year passed, the pain didn't decreased, it is bigger day by day. I can't think ahead, I don't make plans,the only thing i want is my mother to be with me.