Always and Forever - my Michael
(Cabool, MO, USA)
For my husband, Michael Smith, 11-70 to 6-20-12. I cannot believe Mike is not with me. I had no idea he was so sick. I can't believe we went to the hospital so many times. I am thankful he was able to come off life support for one day and tell me how much he loved me, and how much I love him. Most of all, I am angry that he was misdiagnosed and then died. Mike was the nicest person I have ever known. Every day he would call me and leave me messages about how much he loved me, how beautiful I am, etc.. It is so hard to cope without him. I hate doing anything right now, going anywhere. I burst out in tears all the time. I have no support group here. My in-laws are acting horrible through this, but then again, they were no where to be found throughout your heart surgery or anything else. I am tired of people calling and telling me their problems. The in-laws actually told me I have no idea what they are going through. Really?? I spent every day with Mike, took care of him when he was sick, did everything with him. But I have no idea how they feel when they haven't been around the past six years. Hmmm. I am still in disbelief, shock. I have lost the most important, amazing person in my life. There is no one that can replace Mike, ever.