by Jennifer
(Oxnard Ca )

I just thought I had more time. Everything is going so fast. My head hurts, my body is in so much pain. My heart is broken. I feel I can't breath, my throat is closing in on me. I can't eat or sleep all I do is cry for my mom! I feel lonely. I am 31 years old I shouldn't be going through this. My life is not the same. I miss my beautiful Angel. My mom passed away July 13 2014 of Alzheimer's complications, in the hospital. My mom was a fighter, she wanted to stay, she even fought until her last breath. Everyone she loved was there at the hospital. I'm sure she heard everyone of us before her passing. Everything happen so fast. I am so thankful and blessed to call her my mom. I grew up wanting to be just like her. The day after her passing my dad gave me her wedding ring she wore everyday. I am so happy I get to look down at my hand and see apart of her, I have a part of her with me! She will be missed so much, there is not a day an hour a minute that goes by that I don't think of my mom. I am truly broken, I feel I will never be the same person as I was before July 13 2014.

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Aug 26, 2014
Thank you
by: Anonymous

My Mum passed away June 23rd 2014. I have read all these comments and now know that other daughters are feeling just like me..... lost, empty, completely broken hearted, yearning for time to be reversed.
If only.....
Thank you for sharing.

Jul 30, 2014
by: Doreen UK

Jennifer I am so sorry for your loss of you mom. It is one of the worst experiences of our life when we lose our mom's. Our nurturers. The person who made us who we are today. I lost my mom 11yrs. ago. It took me 9yrs. to recover from my grief. One just doesn't know how long any loss will affect us and leave us grieving. What is important to know is that what you are experiencing is NORMAL. WE don't know what to expect from grief and how we will feel. It feels as if it will last forever. But it doesn't. The loneliness and emptiness is what will stay longer and leave us grieving a long time. We will never get used to losing our loved one's, but we will heal and recover from our grief. These next few weeks/months will be the worst you will go through before you will start to recover and be able to move on with your life.
If you find yourself struggling you will be able to find good support in seeing a grief counsellor. Sometimes we can get stuck in grief or in denial for a long time. This also is normal. Many of us need a little help to recover.

Jul 29, 2014
Sorry for your loss
by: Anonymous

My mum died this time last year and it is and was really tough. I always thought I would be able to deal with her passing as she had heart complications and I knew she wouldn't live very long. It is a really difficult time and all you can do is live through it , cry when you need to and accept support from friends and family. Take each day as it comes and little by little it will get easier. Your mum is always with you and remember that she would want you to be happy. In time the grief gets easier but the pain never fully goes away you just learn to live with it. Take care of yourself and remember your love for each other never dies. Therese

Jul 29, 2014
by: Jane

Yes Jennifer, you are absolutley right when you write, you will never be the same person as you were before. My Mom died 14 months ago and I tell you, my self changes a lot every day. Sometimes I am weak, but sometimes I am strong, sometimes I want to die to be by my Mom, sometimes I want to live and make her happy, because she had born me. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I sing, sometimes I talk to my mom, sometimes I call her still to come back to me. Sometimes I lay in my bed watches the wall and can do nothing, sometimes I put on her clothes look at the pictures of her and cry, sometimes I think I´ll make it, sometimes I think this grief will be with me the rest of my life. Sometimes the pain in my heart is hurting me a lot changes all the time. But this is normal. With the death of my mom my whole life went abside down. I have got a ring and a neckless from my Mom before she died. I still miss her every day. And if I would get sick and die too, I would be glad and not be scared anymore. So I live one day after the other. That´s the best for me I can do. Maybe you will try it too. May God comfort and bless you.

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