Am I hear by myself
Happy 50th Birthday to Me
So I've started a new job. Better pay, benefits and 40 hours a week. Financially I have moved forward and am now secured in money. I have an apartment, new car, friends and new life. Is it new or just an illusion? I've walked the walk and talked the talk. Bowling with new friends and races that I remember Billy and I enjoyed.
New friends don't realize ~ does anyone?
I look at Billy's face each day and wonder what I'm doing and where I'm going. Someone please tell me.
I feel pain and hurt not know what the day will bring and will I survive. What is this world were living in want? Why the pain and hurt? Those who are gone, we loved have are moving on into another place in time and are we in a better place. Is that the price we pay, the hurt for there salvation?
Who knows? because I don't...;.
All I know is Billy is in no more pain. For that I'm grateful. So if it means my life will continue this way for him to be at peace then so be it. I know some day I will be with him, until then I will walk the walk and talk the talk and cry those tears every night. I know the pain he carried with him those last years cannot compare and I will bare that pain with the up most. Its a hard road we travel, all of us, but a cross I will carry to easy his pain and sorrow.
So be it, so it will be done.
until were together again once more,
1 step, 1 breath at a time . . . .