An angel named Killer has left my life

by Irma
(Chicago, il USA )

My nightmare began Monday morning for me I got up to take my child to school like I do most Mondays I was rushing to make daughter a plate of oatmeal and getting to the school- once I dropped my girl to school I came in the house and sat in the couch and notice my doggie killer was just lying down in the couch he look a bit not his self- I asked him to come to me but he didn't, I didn't make much of it just figure he would eventually just come to me - a few minutes later I began to kind of dose off in the couch when I heard a hard ugly stomp, to my amazement Killer had fallen out couch and he was collapsing on the floor his breading was completely different and he appear very pale not knowing what to do I called my husband and told "OMG Killer is dying" he instructed me to take him to a vet clinic near by- out of desperation I got in my car and drove to clinic the first thing the dr that seened him say was that he appear anemic because of his color- so she ordered some flood work, she pretty much told he appear to be dying. She sent me home and told me she would called me with the blood work results. 3 hours later she called me and told he his blood work showed him a12 hemocrit blood level she also said he needed a blood transfusion- or I should just consider putting down because he was suffering too much,! After doing some soul searching and going crazy I went into my saving and decided to go on and get the flood transfusion to an emergency clinic we paid $884.43 for the flood transfusion and some X-rays ! They pretty much told as to go home and leave there over nite the did the flood transfusion and it appear he took the blood well, the next day went well at the emergency clinic they told as all they had done was just bought some time for as and hurry up and take killer back to vet clinic who had recommended them so the could figure out what had brought killers blood so low-
We went back to vet and the vet who we saw look at the X-rays and he had a lump and it was cancer- naturally I had a huge nervous break down right in front of her- I was so devasted and hurt, and asked her could she removed the lump. She say yes and that she would do it the next morning while his blood was still high fom the transfusion but she also told as that if killer had the cancer else where she suggest he would be putt to sleep during the surgery. I pray to God and beg him to make the surgery a success and to just pretty please make him well, we left Killer at the vet office for surgery the next morning, she agreed that if things weren't good she would give me a call to proceed and put him to sleep. I got up praying a God to please let him have good surgery and to removed everything that could possibly be wrong with him- But instead I did get a call and it was to let me know that my baby had the cancer spreader all in his intestines and lower GI. I was so devasted and asked her to please not put him to sleep just yet. She told me to come to clinic right away. So I did my baby was lying in a operating table breading oxygen OMG it was the saddest thing that I had seen I felt so powerless and wished it was just a horrible nightmare- it wasn't minuted later she asked as to sign the paper to put him to sleep. I held my sweetheart in my arms till he took his last bread. And now feeling so sad and devasted!