An Unexpected Loss
by Robin Richeson
Laura Blair, our Mother, unexpectedly passed away on May 18, 2012 from a massive heart attack. Not one of us (her five children) were with her to tell her goodbye and I love you for the last time.
My name is Robin and I am the oldest child (33 years old). My brother and sisters (Matthew, Amanda, Meagan, and Morgan) are seven to fourteen years younger than me. I am a wife, mother, full time employee, and full time college student. . .and now a very big sister for my siblings to lean on to.
Losing Mom was a shock. A tragedy. An unexpected loss. To get that phone call - I couldn't even wish that upon my worst enemy if I ever had one.
Now my days have been filled with a longing for my Momma. We would give anything to have her back. We are all experiencing different levels of grief and depression and anger. Sometimes I wish that I could curse at God for taking her from us. Other times I get mad towards Mom. Why didn't we see the warning signs? Why couldn't I have talked her into going to a doctor?!
But she was such a sweet woman and had always put us first. She never wanted attention of any kind. And it never took much to put a huge smile on her face and to make her happy.
Just to have her again with us so we could love on her would be wonderful.
Mom, I pray to God everynight. And I pray / talk to you, too. We're all okay. Time will heal this pain, right?
We love and adore you. Always.