An unstoppable flow of tears
I’m 25 and my beautiful mother died unexpectedly in August 2012. Its been over 6 months now but I still cant stop crying. I seemed okay for a few months at the beginning of this year, but about four weeks ago I started to feel really low and the crying started again. I cry all the time. I miss her so much and I don’t know what to do. I still cant believe that she’s really gone. It all happened so quickly and without any warning. Mum was fit, healthy and strong. We had no idea anything was wrong; she died of an aneurism at the age of 50.
Mum was my best friend and she always said that I was hers. I miss her so much. I need to talk to her about so many things, I want so much to hear her voice again and to get her advice and guidance on things. I really dont feel that I can cope without her. I don’t feel as though I can do anything at the moment. I just want to go home each day and do nothing.
I cant cope with my studies at uni, everything seems too hard. I feel like I’m under all this pressure and I don’t know what to do. People keep telling me that the pain will ease, that I will be happy again one day. But at the moment, it doesn’t feel like life will ever get better. I feel miserable, upset and fragile all the time. I miss my mum so much, how am I ever meant to live without her??