Anger Is Setting In
3 months ago yesterday he died. No warning, no money and no one to help me get through all of this crap. I am ANGRY. I am mad at him for dying and leaving me with absolutely nothing, at my family for expecting me to just get on with my life, at this horrible job market in which I can not find a job, at my kids who I am now left to teach how to be adults ALONE, I am just plain mad at the world. How dare he leave me with all of this to do by myself? Nobody cares that I have just lost my entire life. You are suppose to have time to grieve and go through the belongings when you’re up to it. I had to do it the week he died and move to a new home and live by others rules again as if I were a child because he left me with NOTHING. I just want to hit something or someone. Nobody here understands how I feel. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. I am so sick of this.